I Am So Sorry!

“The biggest adventure you can ever take is to live the life of your dreams.” Oprah Winfrey

I’ve recently noticed that the comments received on my posts have died down.  I asked a friend who is an avid reader, and at one time, a frequent ‘commenter’ why he hasn’t been commenting and his response was “you tend to repeat yourself.”  That comment hurt, a lot. Like a knife through the heart.  A few minutes later, I got over it.

But it got me thinking….and then….

***The light bulb switched on***


I do repeat myself!!!!!

In some form or fashion, and lately my posts have been dark….

To my dear readers, I apologize for putting you through this torture.  I truly am.  But at the same time, isn’t life like that sometimes though?  We tend to go through the same thing over and over, but in different ways.  These events mask themselves as different days, different people, and different situations.  It’s hard to keep everything fresh, especially when I’m writing about my life, and how I see things.  Or maybe that is the issue; I haven’t allowed myself to see things differently.  I don’t know.  Do you know? Please tell me if you do…

I’m trying to learn, navigate my way through as best as I can in this thing we call life.  I’m no expert, never claimed to be.  Remember the days of high school? I’m just like a student in school; I need to do my homework, practice in order to get better.  Some subjects require a heck of a lot of work, and others I can breeze through with little effort.  Although there were some subjects I enjoyed in school, and if I applied myself I could have gotten really good grades, for the most part I hated the damn institution.  Looking back, I wish I did apply myself more, because I feel like I was short-changed and could have done more.  But that’s my stuff to deal with, which I am…sorry for the ramble….

So, to give you some info about me to keep things fresh – I’m writing this blog because I enjoy it, but also because I’m in the midst of making a career transition.  I’m a writer.  I write because I love it, it’s a part of me which I’ve neglected for the longest time, and although I’ve worked in so many different industries, I want to do what I love. I want to write.   I want to share my experiences with everyone, with hopes to inspire them to live the life they want to, to it’s fullest, to learn from my life and to assist wherever possible.

I also like to receive feedback, whether it’s good or bad.  In fact, I think any type of feedback is good – even if you tell me I’m full of crap.  If you do decide to do that, I would appreciate an explanation as to why you think so, as I see it as an opportunity to look at things in a different way, sometimes in ways that I wouldn’t have even thought of before.  I also love a good debate – nothing like a good’ol discussion to try to get your point across, and exercise your mind.  How fun!

And if you want to know my views on something, or want me to write about something in particular or even want to test your writing skills and be a guest blogger, let me know – either on my blog or via email.  I’m open to anything.

Till next time!!!


15 thoughts on “I Am So Sorry!

  1. C says:

    Just something that was on my mind earlier today.
    We struggle, we push we try and try to make things happen. We don’t accept and expect something different. It becomes a struggle, a fight, a war.
    When you simply stop, but down your arms, accept what it is, and just let it be, everything relaxes. Being clear of the struggle will give you the space to breath, observe, learn. The struggle was just against yourself. You made it a hard, difficult experience, therefore you are the one to turn it around and make it a positive experience, its the way you respond that makes the difference.

  2. Carol says:

    followed your blogs but this one made me reply: smartie is talented, smartie has insight into life and things that happen – but smartie comes and goes. if smartie was in love, do gaps or communication happen like this? if a month wizzies by, how do readers know when you will be active again? we care. but if smartie was a man, he would appear to be absorbed into himself, pop up when he has time and discloses things important to him often, if questioned, he will be defensive with a reason and apology. but because smartie is female with child, its “almost” like we should have compassion or else it looks like we are not understanding of what smartie lives through. there is an audience here for you of all types but all would agree if you just show up in november, people will naturally drift. does smartie exercise a commitment to her fans? people always understand you put 200% into your dearist and you have emotions that you explain in detail, but had smartie tried to write something that didnt have the words “i” or “and” used so often, and if the subjects could be new, neutral or more positive, then its new stuff coming from you. topics like “what is beautiful about people…other than focusing on your daugther” or “what is love to you..without saying “i”. or what you wan from this world – the un editted version. you are good smartie, i am not kidding, but when you said write anything, i decided to give you something raw yet something fruitful. lets see if smartie will post this to generate discussion because you have a whole lot to share but you repeat yourself on the things we know about you already! girlfriend, SPEAK UP! more power to you smartie, cheers!

    • Smartie Knows says:

      What can I say…your post has really hit home and opened my eyes. Thank you for your kind words, and for speaking up for that matter. Please never hold back. I’m grateful to have you as a reader. You have given me the gift to realise that I am able to speak up for whatever matters to me.

      • Gabe says:

        Hi Carol
        Read ur comment to Smartie and I agree with ur thoughts. When people voice there opinion and get up front and straight forward in your face, it’s real nice to know that Smartie took these comments of some negative things and turned them to a complete positive. Changing things up is life refreshing and she acknowledged them to a key. I think we will be reading from a hole new Smartie.
        P.S. I think we created a monster lol…:)

  3. Gabe says:

    YES IT WAS ME!!!
    I am the person that did say that to you in response to ur question, “you tend to repeat yourself”.
    Smartie u are my friend and I value that a lot, having said that, I gave you a honest answer to ur question and I’ll explain why. At times in life we all go through peaks and valleys, that come with consequence. Some good and some bad, but this good and bad I find strange. Let’s stop and look at this for a bit. The good is the easy one to see, as we all know when times are good we laugh, sing and dance with joy. It’s the bad or unfortunate times that confusion set in, we tend to look for reasons why and become sad, depressed and at times overwhelmed with all that’s going on in our lives. Just recently iv taken a look and said our problems are not as bad as we think. Take a close look at people and children across the world that are not as fortunate as we are. We live in a world of opportunity, where with effort we can become just about anything and enjoy the benefits we are exposed to. Where the unfortunate people work fields hours on end to bring home enough money to eat and buy the essentials to live. Children use dump sight as there playgrounds, toys are unheard of and so on. I guess what I’m trying to say is that things can get bad in life for us but we can overcome because we have the chance to do so. The unfortunate don’t but somehow find the way and the will to move forward and do the best they can. I found this out first hand when on vacation in the Dominican and took the excursion to live like them for a day. I found it, qhithout getting into detail, one of the most difficult things I have ever tried. The poverty and the ever so little they had was overwhelming to fathom. The thing I noticed as I spoke to a elderly gentleman from there was that he explained they may not have much but we have is a determination to continue forward do the best we can with what we have and keep ur spirits always high. I, like you Smartie, have had some terrible times in life but one thing life has taught me is to continue to move forward and stay positive as all get better with time.
    So just to say Smartie I hear you when you speak or write, but as well as hearing the bad tell me and ur readers about the good and how u got there, the feeling of it, the enjoyment of it as it to is a refreshing thing to hear and read.
    As a friend I will always celebrate in the joys of ur life, but at the same time I may be that same person that lifts you or brings you to a point where ur feet will be firmly planted, the rest my dear friend will be up to you. Take good care

  4. erica says:

    I love ur blog. Don’t stop writing. You have Inspired me to pursue what I love regardless of the surrounding drama. So thank u!!!!

    • Gabe says:

      Border Line
      People like you have a numb brain and can’t relate to what is being written. My advice to you is to stay off blogs like this. This blog is for people who have a positive outlook on life to read and comment, not someone like you that keeps that pea brain of yours closed off and gets a thrill to try to hurt people. You may want to try that Staplegun to the side of ur head and do us all a favor.

    • Smartie Knows says:

      Border Line,

      I’m sorry that you feel that way.

      I’m not forcing you to read my posts. If you’re not liking them and find them “mind numbing”, then I welcome you to stop. Not sure why would subject yourself to do things you don’t enjoy – that is self-induced torture. Not sure what is going on in your life that you feel you must put yourself through that.

      Life is too short – find yourself some enjoyable things to do.



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