“This little light of mine, I’m gonna let it shine” Harry Dixon Loes
I have been AWOL for a few months, as a lot has been going on in my life. A lot of what has been taking place I’ve wanted to share. As much as I’ve tried to get it down on “paper” I just haven’t been able to get enough words together to form a sentence. Perhaps it’s been writers block, but I seem to think that it’s been more of a case of mental exhaustion.
That, along with a bit of fear mixed into it.
Fear is about allowing myself to truly let loose, and be who I really am, and letting me shine through all the gunk that has been thrown on top of me. My confidence levels haven’t been great in many areas and that has put a strain on me. I just haven’t felt like I’ve been capable of accomplishing what I’ve been putting my energies towards, which is really strange for me. But today I came across a quote I’ve ready many times by Marianne Williamson from her book “A Return to Love” which is based on A Course In Miracles. This quotation spoke heaps to me.
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
And as the lightbulb went off in my brain, I realized that the root of it all is that I’ve been dimming my light, and have been dulling myself down. I’ve been feeling inadequate, unworthy, and all the other stuff she mentions. Why? That’s another post for you to read in the close future. But despite all the hard work I’ve been putting in to healing, moving forward, I just haven’t been grasping the messages which were being conveyed. Shine! I’ve got to shine!!!
So from today, I’m going to let “this little light of mine, I’m gonna let it shine”…la la la la la….